The incredible shrinking woman...

Ok, well maybe not shrinking.  Lol.  I am down to 244.8 this morning!  Woohoo!  That is the least I have weighed in over five years!  It's getting a little easier for me to eat smaller portions and control what types of foods I eat.  I have knocked my total daily caloric intake from a incredible 2500 calories a day before my lifestyle switch started to 1500-1600 calories a day.  I can't believe the choices I made for myself were that bad before but I still have a long way to go.  I have made the decision to start the Alli Program as well.  Now that I have changed my diet and can keep the healthier eating going, I hope the Alli Program will give my body that little extra kick to block the extra fats that I am still consuming in my diet.  There are some bad side effects with it, but today is my first day starting it and I hope that I don't have any of those scary problems.  I will keep you posted on the effectiveness of the Alli Program.  I still haven't gotten back into the habit of exercising daily, but I will.  It is a must to boost the weight-loss.  Here's to reaching my new goal- 240lbs!

The changes are getting easier...

Well, I still have the lack of motivation to do extra exercising after I get off work.  It's so hard to find the energy to do it.  I know they say the more you exercise the more energy you get but that's hard when you are so damn tired all the time.  I have been using the myfitnesspal app on my iPhone and trying really hard to stay within 30 calories of my goal caloric consumption for the day and it has been working.  This morning my weigh-in was 245.6!  Five more pound in two weeks to reach my first goal.  Each month I am trying to lose 5lbs.  One month I have the goal of 10, but that's a "we shall see" month.  The only hope I have is to be down to 225 by the end of the year.  I know that diet is 80% of the battle and I have been really trying to conquer that but the exercise is another 20%.  That's the difference from an 'A' to a 'B' grade and I have always been an 'A' student.  This is no time to quit now.  Let's kick this into high gear!

The evening is my downfall....

I try to eat regularly during the day now.  I have controlled my overeating while downstairs.  When I go up to my apartment that's another story.  I still overeat when I go up.  I want to skip eating and just have slim fast but it's so hard for me.  I have cleaned most of the food items I had upstairs out except for the food my mom keeps up there for when she stays with me but I still find something to eat.  I will try my best to stop this bad habit and curb my night-time binging.  It's unhealthy and weight gaining!  Getting up earlier is also my other downfall.  I have the great idea of adding a morning workout to my routine but I already get up at 5am.  I only wanted to try to get up at 4:30am to get in a 15 minute workout, but it's like my body knows it's not time to be up yet and I turn off the alarm and go back to sleep until my regular alarm goes off.  Maybe if I set an alarm for every five minutes and make myself wake and turn it off I will get into the habit of getting up earlier.  All I can do is try to make the progress and keep working at it until it becomes second nature for me.  I have been slacking on my treadmill walking lately too and I need to get into that habit to round out my healthier lifestyle.  Diet is only good if you add exercise with it.  I need motivation again! HELP!

Help me find the determination

Well, I have now plateaued.  I finished the Slim-Fast diet.  Although I did well and lost quite a few pounds, those are quick fix diets that are not long-term result oriented.  I want to change my lifestyle not just quick fix and then gain it all back.  I am down to 250lbs now, but I have lost my determination.  I have the same problem as millions of people in that I love food.  I know exactly what I need to do to lose the weight and I want to lose the weight but during the day I am cooking something and say oh, that looks good.  I want that.  Or I don't have time to eat during the day and then pig out before I go to bed.  I have probably stretched my stomach out so that it doesn't register it's full until it's too late.  I have tried many appetite suppressors.  Drinking water, drinking water right before eating to make you feel fuller, high fiber foods, acai supplements, and others.  All of them have the same results.  I don't notice a difference and eat too much at one time, then I feel bloated and over full for hours afterwards.  I need to find something that stops me from over-eating!  The battle continues...

A new month a few pounds lighter...

Another month has ended and a new began.  It took me 26 years to get in the shape I am today.  I cannot expect the weight to drop off overnight (although that would be amazing).  There have been a few articles in the news lately though about weight loss drugs being approved by the FDA.  People will always look for that quick fix to the problem but that isn't the answer.  Yeah, it may kick-start you and help you reach your goals a lot faster but it doesn't always work in the long run.  You have to change you frame of mind and want to be different to make those changes last.  Choose a bottle of water over that can of pop.  Eat some carrot sticks instead of those greasy potato chips.  You have to look at why you do it and what you can do to change yourself from the inside out...