The changes are getting easier...

Well, I still have the lack of motivation to do extra exercising after I get off work.  It's so hard to find the energy to do it.  I know they say the more you exercise the more energy you get but that's hard when you are so damn tired all the time.  I have been using the myfitnesspal app on my iPhone and trying really hard to stay within 30 calories of my goal caloric consumption for the day and it has been working.  This morning my weigh-in was 245.6!  Five more pound in two weeks to reach my first goal.  Each month I am trying to lose 5lbs.  One month I have the goal of 10, but that's a "we shall see" month.  The only hope I have is to be down to 225 by the end of the year.  I know that diet is 80% of the battle and I have been really trying to conquer that but the exercise is another 20%.  That's the difference from an 'A' to a 'B' grade and I have always been an 'A' student.  This is no time to quit now.  Let's kick this into high gear!

The evening is my downfall....

I try to eat regularly during the day now.  I have controlled my overeating while downstairs.  When I go up to my apartment that's another story.  I still overeat when I go up.  I want to skip eating and just have slim fast but it's so hard for me.  I have cleaned most of the food items I had upstairs out except for the food my mom keeps up there for when she stays with me but I still find something to eat.  I will try my best to stop this bad habit and curb my night-time binging.  It's unhealthy and weight gaining!  Getting up earlier is also my other downfall.  I have the great idea of adding a morning workout to my routine but I already get up at 5am.  I only wanted to try to get up at 4:30am to get in a 15 minute workout, but it's like my body knows it's not time to be up yet and I turn off the alarm and go back to sleep until my regular alarm goes off.  Maybe if I set an alarm for every five minutes and make myself wake and turn it off I will get into the habit of getting up earlier.  All I can do is try to make the progress and keep working at it until it becomes second nature for me.  I have been slacking on my treadmill walking lately too and I need to get into that habit to round out my healthier lifestyle.  Diet is only good if you add exercise with it.  I need motivation again! HELP!

Help me find the determination

Well, I have now plateaued.  I finished the Slim-Fast diet.  Although I did well and lost quite a few pounds, those are quick fix diets that are not long-term result oriented.  I want to change my lifestyle not just quick fix and then gain it all back.  I am down to 250lbs now, but I have lost my determination.  I have the same problem as millions of people in that I love food.  I know exactly what I need to do to lose the weight and I want to lose the weight but during the day I am cooking something and say oh, that looks good.  I want that.  Or I don't have time to eat during the day and then pig out before I go to bed.  I have probably stretched my stomach out so that it doesn't register it's full until it's too late.  I have tried many appetite suppressors.  Drinking water, drinking water right before eating to make you feel fuller, high fiber foods, acai supplements, and others.  All of them have the same results.  I don't notice a difference and eat too much at one time, then I feel bloated and over full for hours afterwards.  I need to find something that stops me from over-eating!  The battle continues...

A new month a few pounds lighter...

Another month has ended and a new began.  It took me 26 years to get in the shape I am today.  I cannot expect the weight to drop off overnight (although that would be amazing).  There have been a few articles in the news lately though about weight loss drugs being approved by the FDA.  People will always look for that quick fix to the problem but that isn't the answer.  Yeah, it may kick-start you and help you reach your goals a lot faster but it doesn't always work in the long run.  You have to change you frame of mind and want to be different to make those changes last.  Choose a bottle of water over that can of pop.  Eat some carrot sticks instead of those greasy potato chips.  You have to look at why you do it and what you can do to change yourself from the inside out...

14 days can change your life...

I have been doing the slim-fast diet for two weeks now.  I am down 7lbs in two weeks!  That is way better than I have every thought I could do.  I still have my splurges, but I try to limit it to one day a week and then the rest I go back to being strict on my diet.  I have also been walking 3mph for at least 30 min each day no matter what.  I do get tired but I am feeling better about it.  I want to start to try waking myself up an hour earlier and getting a morning workout done as well as my afternoon one.  That will give me an hour a day of exercising and they say anything is better than nothing.  I am down to 247lbs!  That is almost 10lbs down from when I started this blog.  I'm not sure if blogging about it is helping with my determination or not but maybe I can change something for someone else out there.  Maybe they will decide to day is the day I will change my life.  Day by day is the only way to do it.  Although I have a goal of being down to 220lbs by December, I only take my diet day by day.  With the help of myfitnesspal.com app on my iPhone I track my daily calories and exercise.  That has been a huge help for me.  You don't realize how many calories you are consuming until you see them listed out for you.  If you don't lie to yourself there you can learn that eating ONE cheese stick has 100 calories!  I know.  It's unbelievable, but before I was tracking my eating habits I would eat a hamburger with 4 or 5 cheese sticks.  That meal alone was worth what most people would have in an entire day.  My body has had that for so long it doesn't know what a good meal should be so with the help of that app I am now eating what my body should have, not what I want.  Give it a try... add me as a friend (morguejunkie), and we can do this healthy living challenge together!

Little by little we march on.

Well, I have been doing ok on the slim-fast diet.  It's hard because I love food and want to eat everything that looks good to me but I am trying to resist.  We are coming onto our second week and I am down 4lbs so far!  Woohoo!  I have been walking for a half an hour each evening on my treadmill and I think it's starting to help too.  My belt needs to be tightened a notch, my shorts seem looser and when I look down I see boobs and no belly!  lol.  Day by day I can do this.  I am only trying to work on it one day at a time and when I am staying at my place alone it works well.  I don't feel the need to make myself eat at night.  When my mom stays with me to work thurs-sat night it's harder because she eats at night.  She won't eat at all during the day but will eat a small dinner and then junk-food at night.  She brings chips or ice cream and then leaves it and it's just temptations I don't need or want.  I am going to make this move to the middle of nowhere count for something!  I will make myself a healthier person here before I move on.  I continue to march on.... 4lbs lighter.

Hard work means nothing without determination.

I have been ignoring my goals.  It happens so easily to me.  I get busy with what is going on in my life and completely ignore everything else that should matter to me.  Lets change that now!  Yesterday an employee of mine said her sister started selling the "Body by Vi" stuff.  Basically it's a diet shake that you drink instead of a meal.  She was asking me what the difference was between doing that and using Slim-Fast.  Basically, I can't think of anything except Slim-Fast has lots of products now and you have 3 snacks a day plus 2 shakes and 1 healthy meal.  Body by Vi has the shakes and some gross cookies you are suppose to eat for a snack.  I'm not sure what a price difference is, but we made a wager about it...  Her sister is using the Body by Vi method, she is going with good ole fashioned diet and exercise and I am going to try the Slim-Fast diet and see what happens in 3 weeks before she leaves to go off to college.  I have done the Slim-Fast diet before and lost weight, but as always, it's a fad diet in which you lose weight while you are doing it but it isn't a healthy way of keeping it off.  Once you quit the shakes and resume eating regular food you usually gain the weight back.  At least that has always been my experience.  Determination has set in.  It is my goal to win this three week competition.  Slim-Fast shall prevail!  lol.....