Every Day is a New Begining

Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Today is the first day you will make a change.  Today is a lot of first, but most of all today will be the first day of my blog.  Hopefully I can continue it and achieve something great.  The goal of this blog is a working journal in which I can put my journey into becoming the healthier person I wish to be.  For the last 26 years of my life I have struggled with my weight.  Crash diet after fad after stupid weight loss miracles have not helped me.  I have allowed my weight to sore out of control.  Although I am not the heaviest I have ever been I am considered "morbidly obese" measuring at only 5'5" and weighing a staggering 256lbs.  I come from an overweight family.  Everyone except my brother that is, who goes to the gym religiously.  I know I will never be a gym freak but I do want to have energy at the end of the day.  First I will figure my daily routine...  I wake up every morning at 5:05 A.M.  Get dressed, take my Lhasa Apso Gonk out to go potty from my second floor apartment and then take him back up to his kennel to go to work back downstairs at Mandi's Main St Cafe.  Two years ago my family bought the cafe and now I have a business to run.  I spend the rest of the day working in the cafe until 2:00 P.M. when we close.  ALL DAY I WORK AROUND FRIED FOODS AND UNHEALTHY FOODS!!!  From 2:00-3:30P.M. a group of older local ladies come in for a "therapy session" when we sit around and have coffee or pop or whatever and shoot-the-shit as they say.  I go back up stairs and let Gonk out again.  After that I either go out to my parents homestead about 10 minutes away and take care of my two horses out there, stay at the cafe to do paperwork and cleaning, do a little gardening around the cafe or my parents home or I go upstairs and clean up a little.  That is how my days almost always go.  I am usually in bed and sleeping again between 6:30-9:30P.M. and the next day starts all over again.  There is a never ending cycle of bad choices and inactivity.  I need to step it up if I ever wish to be healthy.  My mother and father both have diabetes.  My father has heart trouble, my mother has severe rheumatoid arthritis and the list continues!  I don't want my children to have to feel helpless for me when I'm in pain the way I feel with my parents.  For the last about year I have used myfitnesstracker.com.  I'm not sure if it has helped at all because I even lie to myself on there adding some more "activities" that probably don't count as activity to make-up for the calorie overage.  I need to build some muscle to help burn off this fat as well as eating healthier.  Today is my day of  change.  I want to loose the bulge and feel more energized!  Are you with me?!?!